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18 May 2021

Letter to Marlis MArch-April

 

Barooga NSW, 7 May 2021,

 

Hi Marlis,

 

That’s right, all the way over in Barooga in NSW today, driving Yumi back and forth to a work thing. I’ve parked the car next to a river and the only thing you can hear is the birds and oh, there’s a Kookaburra! I hope you are doing well now that the ACT is hitting the frosty lows again, it’s hard to imagine sitting in 25degrees just now 😊. The past 2 months have been as eventful as they could be, so I’ll just get into it straight away.

 

Hamilton trip

Not to the musical Hamilton, I always get so confused when they first act, then dance and sing, I never know what to do! No, the place Hamilton near the Grampians national park. We once visited there about 10 years ago when we came to Australia for the second time and the weather was so miserable, we ended up not seeing or doing much for 3 days. This time around it couldn’t have been more different. The weather was gorgeous, the little bed and breakfast we stayed at was lovely and at night the stars were so bright and visible we could see parts of the Milky Way and even the Magellan Clouds (small parts of other galaxies), which just doesn’t happen in Altona with all the light pollution from industry and the city nearby. As always, Yumi had crafted a very good travel plan and we climbed mountains, visited cultural sites and bushwalked to our heart’s content. We drove up along the Surf Coast and great Ocean Road and you just know you’ve become a local when you don’t even stop at the 12 Apostles or any of the other tourist traps because, well, you’ve seen them more than a few times and they’re rocks, so they don’t change much, haha. Instead, we went inland and got a little bit lost in a volcanic crater park because ethe signage was so strange and all over the place. We found our way back and called it a day for then, without Yumi I’d still be wandering around there now… At the cottage we could play with the cat, who also wanted to sit on Yumi’s lap all night, there were some sheep and alpacas and a veggie garden where we could get fruit and some veggies for our snacks and meals. It was all pretty good. Aside from the fire alarm going off full tilt, not once, but twice, so I pried it off the ceiling and took its batteries out. That’ll teach it! On the way back we stopped in Ballarat to visit the regional art museum and it was much better than expected. It was only supposed to be a stop to stretch our legs a bit, but we ended up staying much longer than expected. They had all sorts of interesting paintings, art installations and contemporary works by local people and the building itself is also a piece of art on the inside. You’d never guess form the outside, with its black and brown façade, but the inside is bright, colourful and light.

 

Work/Career change

You know that job I was so happy to have and go to every week? Yeah, I quit that 2 weeks ago…There was very little drama in the whole event and we parted on good terms. Two months ago, my boss had spoken to one of my teachers who mentioned that I was rushing things and wasting materials. The rushing thing is true and I changed that a lot since then, but the wasting material is just nonsense, also, I pay for those materials myself, so I feel I can make a mistake or two. Anyway, my boss spoke to me about it, I said I’d do better and then two weeks ago he felt that it was necessary to repeat the whole thing again. I let him do the talking and then at the end he said he felt like I wanted to say something too. I wasn’t going to say anything, just having promised Yumi that I would give it my best try, but he really opened the door and I decided that enough was enough.

I explained how I felt that this was not going to work if he treated me like a 17-year-old and that it made me feel like this was maybe not the job or even career for me. He didn’t take that too bad but said that he had many things going on and that I needed to sort my sh** out and fast. Now I am never one to walk away from a challenge, so in the calmest of ways I told him that I’d make his life really easy, pack my stuff and leave. Despite being 2 team members down already, I think we was very happy with that outcome. I always felt like I was a bit of a disappointment to him for some reason and life’s too short to live or work like that. I’ve written a blog post abut it that I’ve included all the way in the end, so you can read even more if you like.

 

Since then, I’ve had a think and decided to call it quits with the tradie life. I gave a good shot for nearly 18 months, but this is where I’ll get off the bus. I’ve decided to go back into some form of consulting. I thought I was going to be totally stressed out, but I am actually doing fine. I might end up working with one of Yumi’s business partners on a few things and have a few ideas of my own that I’d like to work on. The Change community was happy to have me back, judging by the dozens of comments and messages I got since announcing my career reversal. Never a dull moment in the life of Gilbert!  By the time I write the next letter, some kind of plan will probably have formed and I’ll tell you all about it.

 

School and training

With me quitting my job, that also means that TAFE is coming to an end and “good riddance”, I say! The teachers are good, but it’s all so poorly designed and organised that things take twice as long and having to ask what I need to do for every step, yeah, that’s just not me. I did manage to finish my desk (see picture on the next page) which also means I completed my first-year furniture making apprenticeship! I’ll get a statement of attainment, so that if I ever decide to go back and finish it, I can start form that point on, so that was totally worth the last 3 days of last week. I also got to hang out with one of the best teachers and he helped me sharpen my chisels to such a point that I can now perform simple surgeries on humans and farm animals if required. Probably not a good idea though 😊.

  

 

On the same day I quit my job, I also got the news that I passed the exam for my Cert4 Training and Assessment. Now I don’t want to sound like a total whinger, but that was one of the most terrible courses I’ve ever done. The people and organisation were lovely, but the paperwork and repetitive work were beyond funny. I honestly think I wrote a 300-page book of forms and templates. I was super excited to get the qualification because it allows me to teach at unis, TAFEs and schools in a casual capacity, but I will never, ever do this again if I can help it. Aside from the refresher courses every few years, those can’t be too bad…Right?! Well, they can’t be any worse than the course itself, if only because it’s just 2 days!

 

SES activities

It was relatively quiet with callouts for a while, aside from the possibility that we’d be going to WA to help out with the cyclone damage over there. But then they went in lockdown and all things got stopped. It’s always a weird feeling, because you want to go and help, but you’re also happy that you don’t have to, because that means things are under control. Well, sort of, because in East-Gippsland, people still need help and not much is happening there now that the media has moved on to the next crisis.

 

I’ve started my truck license and passed the theory exam already, even had an hour behind the wheel of our own very old truck that will be replaced in a few weeks’ time. I need a few more lessons because some habits I’ve developed over time are not good enough when you’re driving a 3-axle 27 tonne block of steel. I had my truck license 15 years ago, but let it expire when we came to Australia. I hadn’t driven a truck for 8 years by then and didn’t think it was safe to just get behind the wheel. I mean, we see enough accidents on the roads around Melbourne and now that I’ve seen the theory exam, I understand why. It was So.Much.Harder. in the Netherlands!

 I am very excited that 9 other members are getting their chainsaw ticket soon and then we’ll go on a fieldtrip to regional Victoria to cut up some trees. We did a test run a few weeks ago and that was heaps if fun. It will also help our unit and response rate because currently it’s mostly me or one or two others doing all the cutting work and that’s just not great. The new recruits are super keen and want to get into things so I am happy to step aside and let them have a go. This and next few weekends I’ll be training a few of them for the next level in their SES career, so that’ll be fun as the weather promises to be terrible…Oh well, we call that ‘a scenario of realistic circumstances’ 😊.

 

Yumi’s work, courses and training

Yumi keeps powering on and working with her clients all over the country. She was in Canberra last weekend to meet with her business partners in person for the first time in more than 12 months. It sounds like it was a good meeting, because she came back full of energy and plans, which is the version of her that I like best. A lot of things that had been on the boil for a while are now finally getting pushed to the next step or will be brought to a close, so that’s progress! Between all that busy business work, she’s also managed to complete 2 trainings. One more in the space of thinking about yourself and how your respond to the world, the other about a certain method that consultants use to get results without making organisations and the people in them jump through hoops. She’ll end up delivering that training to others now as well and will perhaps even do a few consulting jobs for Semco Australia. I think she got a lot out of it and even made the course better for others. Money well spent for sure!

 

Bronn the foster dog

The day after we came home from our Hamilton break, we picked up foster dog #3, Bronn. His whole litter was named after character from Game of Thrones, a popular, be it slightly gruesome, t-series. He’s named after a mercenary and that is just so funny because he is a massive grey hound of nearly 40kgs, but also the biggest scaredy pants you’ll ever meet! In hindsight, the other two gave us a real easy time. He was just the loveliest and most gentle dog, but afraid of the wind, cars, the trains, the train horn, loud noise and fast movements. He probably led a very sheltered life so far. He’ll get there eventually though because he was just so smart. He recognised reflections, understood doorknobs and how he would get a treat if he had all four of his paws on his mat. He was the only one so far that Yumi felt safe to leave in the living room while we were out and aside from the occasional ‘stolen’ shoe, he didn’t get up to mischief at all. He also was enormously food motivated and ate everything we gave him, which was a very pleasant change from the other two. We learn so much from every next one, this is just too much fun to stop doing. His anxiety and stress caused him to lash out to me a few times, but he doesn’t mean to harm you, just trying to tell me he was scared, so I don’t blame him, just kept my distance when I could. He’s back at the shelter now and I am sure they’ll find a good home for him, maybe after a bit more training on how to use stairs because that remained a bit of a challenge till the end. Below are some pictures of him on his mat, exploring the water, proudly standing on the landing of some stairs outside and sniffing all the snack for his birthday on the 28th of April. The only time we had grilled chicken in the house and he loved it!


 

 

 


New volunteer gig

I’ve started working with an animal shelter in Grafton, NSW just because they asked for help. The lady, Sally, has turned 70 and feels like it’s time to start slowing down and hand over the ‘business’. It’s early days still, but I’ve been asked to write up a strategy, a media plan, a succession plan, a fundraising strategy and a few other things that shouldn’t be too hard. I plan to take it slow and there’s no need to rush as she has a 5-year plan in mind. Then again, she’s had three strokes so far and things might not be up to her completely. I handed in the draft documents this Wednesday and learned a lot in the process. Very curious to see what happens next. There’s a very small chance that Yumi and I will take over the shelter if everything works out just right, but for now I am designing it all for someone else and it’s just good to use my brain for these sorts of things again!  

 

Small things

·       BeachPatrol, where we clean the beaches and streets in Altona has started up again and it’s good to be out and cleaning up again. Now that things are getting back to some sense of normal, littering is back as well, so there’s work to do!

·       My friend Peter and I will be working on a comic book about Change management and what doesn’t work and maybe even design a game where one team needs to make change happens, while the other team does everything they can to make it fail. Even if nothing comes of it, I just love working with him because we have so much fun.

·       All the family in the Netherlands are getting their Covid shots and we feel much better knowing they’ve been vaccinated. Australia is so much better off than any other country I know of, it’s just amazing to see thousands of new infections and no one seems to car that much I hope you also decide to go and get the Pfizer one. There are some very rare problems with the Zeneca one, but knowing how tough you are, you probably wouldn’t even notice it if you caught Covid anyway 😊.

 

Alright, that’s it form me for now, please stay safe and warm and I’ll write soon again with my adventures from May and June.

 

Gilbert

 

 

This is the piece I wrote on my ‘professional’ blog:

To make sense of my career changing events of the last week or so, I imagined meeting myself at a networking event and answering some questions I might have after not seeing me there for 18 months. Here’s how I imagine this conversation would go.

Where have you been all this time?

I decided that I needed a break from Change management and how it was being practiced. I wanted to find out if working with my hands was a better career option for me. After two workplaces and a year of TAFE I realised that the mature age apprentice life is definitely not for me.

What made you quit?

In hindsight it was two big things that were made worse by smaller things. Big thing one was that I had interviewed way too well and got a reference that was so glowing that people all around Torquay had to shut their blinds for 3 days. I could simply not live up to that, despite my best efforts. Big thing two is that I was arguably the worst apprentice ever. My work ethic is beyond compare, but I consider myself too old for most BS that a teenager will put up with. Add to this that my last boss and I have very similar personalities and we brought out the worst in each other by just being ourselves. Being told that I needed to get my sh*t sorted (and fast) while I was trying to explain that I wasn’t sure if this was the life for me, sealed the deal for me. It was also the first time that after six months I was still the least performing person on a team of legends. After a while I got the sense that mistakes were no longer acceptable and that I was simply not good enough to keep around. Life’s too short for that and the team deserves better, so off I went. That’s my version of events, a story with an okay ending and no heroes or villains.

Has it changed you in meaningful ways?

I sure hope so. It would be quite depressing if 18 months of being in a completely different environment, doing very, very different things would leave me unchanged. My patience has improved at least 5-fold! But before you get excited, that’s from 2% to 10%, so let’s hold off on the celebration just yet.  I am less confident than I used to be and I like to think I am a bit more easy-going, less intense. People often mistake my intensity for passion, but it’s really just frustration with the way things are, voiced in a pleasant and sometimes amusing way.

What was the best thing about it?

So many things! Every day is different, new places to go, things to do, furniture to finish and offcuts to set on fire. What’s not to love?! I got to work with truly talented people and make beautiful things that people want to own and sometimes designed themselves. The trade took me all around Melbourne when lockdowns 1,2 and 3 happened and kept me working and learning when so many others had the roughest of times. I’ve visited many schools, businesses, the poshest of homes and lots of other strange and wonderful places that Change never took me.  On top of that I now have a full kit of tools that I know how to use if I ever want to make an okay-ish piece of furniture. And that’s not even mentioning the hundreds of hours of podcast on science and history I could listen to while working in an ‘office’ with the best view and coolest workshop dogs ever. Good times indeed.


What was the worst about it?

TAFE, without a doubt. Imagine a kitchen where 16 incompetent young people (and old me) are cooking a somewhat specified meal, using the same tools, pots, pans and the same space, with little to no instruction and guidance and everyone can stir pots, change the temperature of the oven and mix up ingredients. That’s not a meal you’d serve anyone. Most of the teachers were masters of their craft but the system itself is beyond repair and caused so much frustration that I was looking forward to leaving by the time I walked in. I also didn’t enjoy feeling incompetent for months on end. Apparently, that’s part of the process, which makes me feel that the process is in serious trouble. I figured I’d feel more competent, skilled and trusted as months went by, but the exact opposite was true for me. Perhaps it was one of those: “once you know how little you know, it’s hard to remain confident about what you do know” kind of situations. I’ve been known to be my own worst enemy…

What did you learn?

So many things! Probably the most important thing was to not drill into my hand! Not only does it hurt quite a bit while it heals, it also really freaks people out. Their screaming is a lot worse than the blood. Another thing I learned is that it feels better to work pro bono than for minimum wage. I always had respect for people doing hard work for minimum wage, now that I’ve experienced it myself, that respect has at least doubled. Another key learning was that almost every mistake can be fixed if you have enough time. Also, sometimes IKEA is easier, faster and almost always cheaper than making it yourself from scratch.

Any regrets?

No, it was totally worth it, even though I would not recommend this kind of career change to just anyone and probably never do it again myself. Despite having failed in what I set out to do, the experience of stepping away from Change and fully committing to a completely new trade gave me some much-needed perspective and helped me regain creativity I didn’t even know I had lost.

Did you miss the Change Community? Even a little bit?

I missed the people and conversations a lot, for sure. But LinkedIn and Twitter kept me connected to long-time Change friends and in the loop on the big things. With 2020 being the social and professional dumpster fire it was for so many, I feel like this was the best year to take a break. For once, my timing was spot on! I’m not saying that nothing has changed in Change, but now that the roar of lockdown terror, vaccine anger and all the posts on making sense of a post-COVID world have subsided a bit, I think we’re once again hearing all those good ideas and new initiatives that got drowned out before.  So much new ideas to look forward to!

You’re here tonight, does that mean you’re back to doing Change work?

Short answer, yes. If the right challenge comes along; I’ll jump on it to get back into things. Longer answer: I’m not sure if I want to. From what I’ve seen from 20 minutes on job boards, the change job market is as mercenary as it’s always been. I’ve got a few things I am working on with Purpose at Work in board advisory on quality and safeguarding and if things go well, I’ll be creating a whole new toolkit on purposeful practices in disability, aged and social care. I am also looking forward to the third round of Change Tools Masterclasses for Deakin. I still prefer short term, complex and hard to solve challenges and I think everyone is better off if I am my own boss moving forward.

Good to see you again, I hope the community welcomes you back with their usual enthusiasm!

Thanks for the chat, I enjoy being back and look forward to finding out what people have been up to.

 

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